For Little Girls With Big Questions
Quarter Woman
Quarter woman
Learned how to shrink since day one
from full to half to what she is now,
each half of her ribs halved, paper
doll stuck together with expectations
origami miracle, accordion folds
each lung wrapped around itself,
each breath echoed till it whirls in-
side, memory of each scream etched
on skin bound so tight the bones
under it warped and twisted into
punctuation marks she never had
enough breath with which to add to
sentences that flatline, her mouth a
too sharp line stretched into a too
wide curve (baby, why don't you smile
no more?) against which she skids,
hands trembling against the too
warm steering wheel, face smashed
against a too brittle windshield, glass
ceiling shimmering in her hair like
stars finally in her reach, blood
blooming, expanding, reaching out,
staining loudly enough to be seen,
and smelled, and tasted, and heard
taking space, taking hurt, taking
fear, wreathing them into angry
demands declared in louder roars-
quarter woman no more, no more
no more.
Caramel
Some day, when
you can —
meet me where the tip
of my tongue
meets
the corner
of my mouth, where my lips part
and
reconcile like
lovers still discovering the creases
of each other, still finding footing in
the sheer, unedged rock of new starts —
meet me there, where intention is
still fluid, still soft, wet from where
I tried to nibble it into shape;
meet me just before I bite down
too hard,
edge into the corners of my jaw —
settle in, sticky sweet slowing
till it melts into my skin
lingering,
just like you.
Shylock
when you have forgotten what
it is like to be a girl, but have not
yet slipped on the skin of a wo-
man because it itches, ill-fitting,
untailored for your too-short legs
and too-long arms, look at a girl,
a girl still a girl with fingers and
toes that feel like her own, and
watch carefully how her eyes are
a little removed from her tube-
like body, still soft and straight,
saltwater taffy yet unpulled into
grotesque shapes she will spend
her life untangling herself from,
unwilling sailor forced to learn
of knots she never wanted to tie —
watch carefully how she stares
back, waiting for you to demand
of her the cost of being, a debt she
carries in her still-filling bones,
a debt you still pay, and hold her
gaze; offer her a moment without
usury, without extortion, and let
her save it up, gathering interest.
How To Crack A Rape Joke
This is how a rape joke is built
first, you pile up the clothes you
were wearing that evening, red
shirt, high collars, ratty jeans you
meant to throw away, yellow bra
with a fraying left strap and your
panties with almost stretched
out elastic and straying threads:
light them up with alcohol and
the lighter your mother always
frowned upon, the one that rattled
in your bag when your shoulder
hit the wall and you couldn’t open
your mouth to scream (you tried)
This is how a rape joke sounds
take all the times you heard your
sister cry when she thought sleep
had taken you, add the sounds of
every ‘but what were you wearing
that day’ and ‘but are you sure it
was rape’ that you store your teeth
till they burrow into your gums and
bite the softest parts of you when
you try to speak and untangle the
the lilt of each word till it stands
sharp — weave it through the centre
of every punchline that leaves you
gasping — a punch to your gut.
This is how a rape joke is told
wait till the smoke from your pile
of clothes is thick enough to choke
you and dense enough to cover all
of your face, lest someone recognise
you as the ‘girl who was raped’; you
are now the perfect victim, just loud
enough to exist but soft enough to
be a story wrapped around everyone’s
tongues from where you can be
conveniently spit out — you are now
the perfect sound byte, a catchy
slogan for the crowds, you are the
star of a narrative you never allowed.
This is how a rape joke feels.
This is how a rape joke feels.
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