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American Welcome and other poems

American Welcome and other poems

Eleven poems by the Jamaican poet, as part of the World Poetry/Prose Portfolio, curated by Sudeep Sen 

American Welcome


I’ll never forget the first time 
when as a recent arrival to America,
I’d been offered a fellowship for a month-long 
residency in Seaside, Florida, where no two 
houses on the same street are allowed 
to have the same picket fence, and eager 
to escape the white noise of the Lyceum, 
modelled after Jefferson’s academic village,
where I had been dubbed, “the equal opportunity
candidate,” I wandered outside the gates 
on my morning jog — as if I was still 
that privileged schoolboy, who could go 
anywhere he wanted — when a pickup 
truck with six or so rednecks, swilling beer
in the flat bed — they might as well have been
on horseback and wearing white robes —
whizzed by me while I was tying my shoe 
laces and screamed, “Niggerrrrrrrrrrr.”
I looked behind me to find the target 
of their anger, for Garvey had taught me 
long ago never to answer to that name, 
and then, jumped out of the way 
before a bottle exploded near my feet,
and continued my journey toward 
the outskirts of the town, but now always 
looking over my shoulder, always 
running, always out of breath.


Philosophy 101


I’d avoided the class until my senior year in college 
when my advisor warned me that I wouldn’t graduate 
until I took a course on western philosophy, 
in which, as I feared, instead of reading the discussions 
between Camus, the pied noir writer who argued 
for the State’s use of force, and Sartre, who enlisted 
Fanon to untangle Hegel’s Master-Slave dialectic,  
we read Kant’s theses about the nature of evil and good. 
Two weeks later, my suspicions about the course 
were confirmed when the TA, fresh out of graduate 
school, decided to assign a thought experiment. 
It was a simple exercise in which we’d follow,
without relying on emotions — for they always led
to invalid conclusions — the logic of our premises 
with pure objectivity, “Suppose you had to choose 
between saving an irreplaceable painting, let’s say 
a Rembrandt — who bathes his subjects in light 
while pushing darkness to the edge of the frame —
or the life of an old woman, who'd lived long enough 
to see her grandchildren, so she didn’t have much to look 
forward to. What would be your choice? The paper’s due 
next week.” Trudging back to my dorm, I doubted 
if it would have been so simple if his grandmother 
had been forced into the bowels of the Zong
or later on another continent, had been herded 
into showers in Buchenwald, where scholars, 
who’d studied Nietzsche’s books that escaped
the pyres in Berlin, found haven in the officer’s
quarters while ash from the chimneys
clouded the windows of their favourite theatres. 
I would’ve dropped the course, but the deadline 
had already passed, so I plopped on my bed 
and studied the ceiling tiles when D., my roommate, 
now sprouting dreadlocks saw me scratching my head,
“What are you struggling with?” he asked. I showed 
him the assignment and he said. “These guys don’t get it. 
Rastafari knows everything begins with ‘I am; therefore, 
I wonder.’ Don’t follow dem fuckry, me bredrin, 
not one raas.” So I took a gamble and skipped 
writing the paper. No wonder I failed that class.


A Roadmap to Genocide

for Gregory H. Stanton

First, you need a leader who carries a burden 
from birth or by accident, from which he can find
no relief with the lies he invents, or those his lovers
whisper when they leave in the early mornings,
so he has to search for someone, anyone
to blame for his misery, the torments of his warriors, 
who aren’t afraid to smash the skulls of niggers, 
kikes, gypsies — you name them. Don’t worry. 
They really aren’t human. They’re more like cockroaches,
rats, parasites that leech the blood of your children, 
vermin that transmit diseases like AIDS, Ebola, 
typhus, and others, which your scientists haven’t yet
identified, but for which the treatment is always 
quarantine in camps as far away as Krome from Miami.

But be careful. As with any plan of this scale, 
be prepared to improvise. Fill in the gaps
with your own ideas. Begin by organizing the police, 
army, militia — what have you — and if you’re lucky, 
you may even recruit some half-breeds or traitors 
who are willing to fatten themselves by enforcing 
laws that keep them weak, statutes you’ve devised 
to keep your property and your women — isn’t it always 
your women? — whom you’ve convinced with stories 
on the radio, television, and Twitter that caravans 
of criminals have crossed the border with one intent: 
to finger their hair, grope their thighs with hands 
stained by grease and germs under their fingernails.

The rest of the journey is easy — whether you want slaves, 
or to plunder the wealth you claim they have stolen. 
The choice is yours: lock them in cages or kill them 
slowly by poisoning the water. Use your discretion. 
No one will notice a murder here or there until trials 
are underway, which if you’ve done the groundwork, 
only a few protesters will remain because you’ve already 
silenced the cries of those who’d have stood up for sufferers,
those whom you’ve murdered with ropes, knives, guns, 
and in gas chambers. Choose your method of execution 
judiciously. I’d recommend ways that aren’t too messy. 
You don’t want to leave any evidence lying around, 
so that when you reach your final destination — you’ll know 
by signs like, “Arbeit macht frei” — and if you’re caught 
fleeing across borders, you’ve monitored for decades,
you can always rely on legally prepared pardons to deny 
that you knew anything about the killing fields 
or you can swear that nothing like that ever happened 
on your watch. Either way, it’s going to be a blast!


The Israelites

for Desmond Dekker

Desmond, who would’ve thought fifty-one years 
later after you’d cut “The Israelites,” that it would end 
up on The Watchmen, a series that begins with the destruction
of Black Wall Street by white supremacists, and in the third
episode, “She was Killed by Space Junk,” where Adrian 
Veidt is held captive by the Game Warden? I mean, 
I could understand a number one hit in England 
forty years ago when the children of the Windrush 
generation — who’ve been betrayed by the British 
government — blasted their music so loud from sound 
systems in Birmingham and Brixton that your song 
became part of the soundtrack for the punks. 
Or that it climbed the charts to the number nine 
spot in the US, where they couldn’t grasp the meaning 
of the lyrics, but were beguiled by the bouncy tune 
that belied themes of poverty, crime, abandonment,
and hunger — the same way the island seduces tourists 
into thinking Jamaica is a paradise and they wind 
up dead in the mangroves, a feast for John Crows 
and hermit crabs. But a number one hit in Israel? 
They must’ve thought the song was about them. 
You had a different tribe on your mind, Rastafari, 
or “The Lost Tribe of Israel,” who roamed the streets
of Trench Town. For who could blame the brethren, 
who escaped extermination at Pinnacle and Coral 
Gardens when the Prime Minister of Jamaica in 1963, 
Alexander Bustamante, ordered Babylon
to “Bring in all Rastas, dead or alive!” 
because they identified with the story of a people, 
who survived exile, captivity, genocide,
and turned their tribulations into psalms of hope.



Bad Friday

for Deborah A. Thomas and John L. Jackson

Years after the beasts of Babylon swooped
down on Pinnacle and scattered Rastafari,
whose wisdom became flesh for I to unlearn
the folly of the massas of Rose Hall, 
who grabbed me by my dreadlocks, and screamed, 
“Rasta bwai, you a go dead today.” Did it matter 
that I came from a good family or that my mother 
taught me good manners, “Howdy and tenky 
brukno square”? They only needed my beard
as evidence that I was a criminal and beat
me bloody until I was as naked as Christ
under the whip of Roman soldiers.
And all I could hear was the whoosh
of the batons raining on my head
until I was blind in my left eye, but I
could still see His Majesty and remained
as still as a spider at the center of a web
awaiting my deliverance. For in the hour
of my tribulation, when it felt as if the Father
had turned his back, like the moment before
an earthquake begins, I knew that if I had fallen
to the lowest depths, I would also rise again,
on the wings of mourning doves over Mount Salem.



How to Spot a Survivor


You don’t know what you did, but whatever 
you did, it was wrong. So wrong that the soldiers 
or anyone carrying a knife, gun, machete, or lacking 
a weapon, improvised with their hands 
and murdered your family on a day so beautiful, 
the chamber of commerce could’ve used a photo
to entice tourists to visit your country 
before the state department’s travel ban inched 
across the television — your only companion 
that silences the voices that keep returning, 
despite the drugs you use to forget, Did I do too 
much or too little? Drugs you use to get sleep, 
which you dread, for when you dream, 
hands drag you back under the earth, 
and you keep hoping it’s all an elaborate 
prank and that on your birthday next year 
or the next or the one after that when you open 
the door of your too small apartment —
which could’ve never held gatherings 
for your rambunctious family —
they’ll pop up from behind the sofa 
and yell, "Surprise!” Your mother, whom your aunt 
says you resemble, but you can’t see the similarity
even after you’ve studied her photographs 
from every possible angle, but pray one day 
when you’re staring into the mirror, she’ll appear 
behind you and nod approvingly at the reflection; 
your father, whom you hated for the beatings —
you would now gladly endure — when he came home 
drunk and grabbed anything he could find, a shoe, 
an extension cord, as if it had been placed in his way 
by an avenging angel to beat the feistiness out of you; 
your brother, who was always broke, but you wish 
he was beside you and still broke, but not dead. And how 
could he be dead when he was the only one who could 
explain why you feel as if you’re in a deleted chapter 
of Left Behind because you and the murderers are still alive?



The Archangel’s Trumpet


If you followed the frescoes on the ceiling 
of the Sistine Chapel, you’d believe 
that there are no black angels in heaven. 
And, maybe, they are right. Our seraphs 
and cherubs, would rather help Yemaya 
to protect her children from the wolves
in this world than to spend eternity pondering
the mysteries of the Madonna’s Assumption.
And although being in the form of God, 
who weeps for the blood shed on our sidewalks 
and bedrooms, they emptied themselves 
when they took the likeness of men, women, 
X, in the land of Dis: dishonour, disrespect, 
disregard, desgraciada — where black skin 
is despised like an incurable disease: the darker 
the hue, the greater the sin, and the only cure 
is a bullet or a noose. But in those moments 
when they put down their mortal concerns: 
paying doctors’ bills or worrying if their spouses 
and children will make it home for dinner; 
when they have grown tired of hiding 
grimaces behind selfies and mug shots, 
they unfurl wings that cover their backs, 
scarred by the spite of downpressers,
wounds from those whom we love so dearly, 
and re-join the hymns that we knew before 
our feet landed on the sand, on the auction block —
before we had forgotten how to fly
and lifted our voices to a sky that greeted 
the chorus, the way flame-hearts signal the start 
of summer with crimson petals, or the harmony 
that bees on a pollen path recognize in the opening bars:
“O, blow your trumpet, Gabriel, Blow your trumpet louder, 
I want dat trumpet to blow me home to my new Jerusalem.”



America 2020


America, you’ve lost your way.
You’ve believed in your innocence
for so long, you’ve betrayed your promises 
on parchment, trapped children in cages, 
robbed fatherless children and widows 
of their birthright, and while the oceans 
churn towards a slow boil, and a virus holds
us hostage in our homes, you’ve allowed gangsters 
to prey on families seeking asylum from thugs 
in Honduras, El Salvador, and Guatemala.
And you’d rather die than give up your privilege 
to hunt black men you think have become too uppity. 
Yet, despite the millions lost in the Maafa, 
massacres in East St. Louis, Tulsa, Rosewood, 
the destruction of Overtown, and poisoning of Flint,
we are marking stones where our martyrs 
have fallen, taking note of your crimes that fester 
like scraps of chicken and lamb — desperate offerings 
to the saints for justice — littering the steps 
of the courthouse in Miami, where a wake 
of turkey buzzards returns to their roosts atop 
skyscrapers every winter, their wings darkening the skies.


History Lesson


Inside my father’s darkened study, 
lined with thumb-worn history books, 
portraits of his heroes, warrior saints, 
like Ignatius Loyola, whom he adored 
from when he was about the same age 
as my son, to whom he hands a globe —
to my son’s innocent delight — to show 
him the old borders before the world 
went to hell. My father’s index finger 
traces along the meridians with the ease 
that another of his heroes, Pope Julius, 
made a line that ran through the Cape 
Verde Islands to the Nuremberg Laws 
that separated the damned from the saved
And despite my unease with this lesson —
quieted by his glance that paralyzes 
my hands — I cannot tear my son away 
from his arms, for he is my father, 
and I am a good son, who must obey.



The Reckoning


It could have been on a day like this 
when Pero Jones, an enslaved African, 
who had worked well for Edward Pinney's 

family until he visited the plantation in Nevis 
where he had been bought, drowned his grief 
in rum that his brothers and sisters distilled 

from their sweat, and died in his master’s 
house in Bristol. And for over a hundred years, 
the descendants of Pero Jones, who grew tired 

of the pain — like the kind George Floyd’s
brother confessed in his testimony before Congress —
the daily insult when they faced Edward Colston’s 

statue, “Erected by the citizens of Bristol 
as a memorial to one of the most virtuous and wise 
sons of the city,” that sneered when they crossed 

the footbridge Bristolians eventually named 
after their ancestor, so they grabbed their hammers, 
enough rope to support the weight of a man, 

tore down the statue, and dumped it in Bristol Harbor 
where centuries ago Colston’s ships after selling 
their payload of sugar — served in the finest teahouses 

in the Empire — returned to Elmina Castle 
to retrieve his property, branded with the seal
of the Royal African Company on their chests, 

and then, slipped past sharks following slavers 
that dumped cargo unfit for sale into the ocean,
their sails billowed by winds, which later  

would become hurricanes that now threaten 
windmills, Great Houses, statues of conquistadors  
and criminals in the archipelago of the dispossessed.



Suburban Kenosis


These days, I haven’t seen the schizophrenic 
girl, who used to scavenge for cigarette butts
near the fountain abandoned by homeless men

like Kenny, master mechanic and family man,
who, after his accident and doctors introduced 
him to Oxy, has moved his cart behind the bus stop.

Sometimes he’ll hum a tune I barely recognize, 
and some days he will lie in the grass until crows 
descend on flames of flamboyants. Yet Kenny 

never flinches, despite their taunts, and I wonder 
what he might have done, for it must’ve been 
something spiteful — crows never forget. 

“Self-aware, able to ponder the contents 
of their own minds,” the crows interrogate 
him about his sins in this life or the last, 

and when a bus arrives, ending the torment 
of their questions, they adjourn for another day.
Piling his bags on the steps, he heads to the Beach 

to sleep beside blanket flowers until the sun stumbles 
over the dunes. And then, like a widower, whose hands
tremble when he rummages through his cabinet 

for medications to ease his pressure, lower his sugar —
complications his body registers as a sluggishness 
of his blood, a stabbing pain in his ankles — he will snap 

a rubber band on his wrist to remind himself to throw away 
chocolates he’d bought yesterday, to give up everything 
he’d ever loved, as if he hadn’t been doing that all his life?

(These poems were part of May 2021 issue, which was delayed due to the pandemic and released on August 3) 

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Outstanding poems; heartfelt! Geoffrey's poetry has a way of sneaking inside you to unravel your composure and lay bare your heart. This is one those times.
Marva McClean
Aug 4, 2021 at 14:48